Funeral Connections

I went to a funeral on Saturday. It was a really odd experience. Only because I went expecting to not feel a thing. It was a funeral for a woman who worked with my mom. I met her when I was really young and I haven't seen her since I was a kid. So I really didn't expect what happened. It made me wonder whether or not you just get more in tune with your emotions or I'm just really emotional. But I cried that morning. It made me feel so connected to death and it's actual sadness. We as humans deal with death and violence everyday and it's no big deal. I mean we play Grand Theft Auto, kill millions of people and laugh. So why is it when death is there, really staring you in the face, is it sad? What's the connection there? It's really odd how your heart can break in the smallest ways.

Christmas Song

It's been a while since i've blogged, ha that sounds funny. Anywhoozer, over the last five years, i'd say, i've been wanting to write a christmas. but i never did due to my mediocre talents in music. however, on saturday i fianlly wrote one. it was really cool cuz i got this huge burst of inspiration and i'm really excited. i can't say that it won't be mediocre, but i'm still really excited that i did something i've been wanting to do. so i'm going to lay it down today and give it to my family as a christmas present. only because i have no money and buy them shite. i dunno, i guess as i get older presents just don't matter as much anyway. just being able to be with the ones you love, that means everything. oh geez, i sound super cheesy. whatever ha. so yeah that's about all i got for now.