Funeral Connections

I went to a funeral on Saturday. It was a really odd experience. Only because I went expecting to not feel a thing. It was a funeral for a woman who worked with my mom. I met her when I was really young and I haven't seen her since I was a kid. So I really didn't expect what happened. It made me wonder whether or not you just get more in tune with your emotions or I'm just really emotional. But I cried that morning. It made me feel so connected to death and it's actual sadness. We as humans deal with death and violence everyday and it's no big deal. I mean we play Grand Theft Auto, kill millions of people and laugh. So why is it when death is there, really staring you in the face, is it sad? What's the connection there? It's really odd how your heart can break in the smallest ways.

Christmas Song

It's been a while since i've blogged, ha that sounds funny. Anywhoozer, over the last five years, i'd say, i've been wanting to write a christmas. but i never did due to my mediocre talents in music. however, on saturday i fianlly wrote one. it was really cool cuz i got this huge burst of inspiration and i'm really excited. i can't say that it won't be mediocre, but i'm still really excited that i did something i've been wanting to do. so i'm going to lay it down today and give it to my family as a christmas present. only because i have no money and buy them shite. i dunno, i guess as i get older presents just don't matter as much anyway. just being able to be with the ones you love, that means everything. oh geez, i sound super cheesy. whatever ha. so yeah that's about all i got for now.

Just a Thought

I'm thinking I want to record a cover of the song Listen by Beyonce. Yeah, yeah, I know. But it's a real good song w/ lot's of soul. Which I'm trying (very unsuccessfully) to train my voice to do. Who knows? Maybe with some practice it'll come out pretty good. It'd be nice to try though, huh? However, it makes me kinda nervous . 1) Because I don't have that great of a voice and 2) Because this would be the first non-joke song i'll have made. It's not my own song, but I'd like to try it only to see if I could do more serious songs successfully. I don't know though, what do you think?? Let me know, Please!

An American Crime

this movie was incredibly rightful in it's name. what happened to Sylvia Likens was absolutely one of the most horrid things i have ever seen/heard of. i would go into it, but it's probably best if you just look her up. throughout the entire movie i was incredibly distraught and... it just makes me dejected and dismal.

The Secret Life of Bees

This book is really really really good! it's been a favorite of mine for quite some time now! and i'm rather ecstatic for the movie to come out! i know it won't be as good as the book, but seeing how i love movies i'm sure i'll like it! i think the cast is pretty suitable for the world of the story so to say the least, i'm excited. i am, however, not excited to see J. Hud!

loves it

Dreams/Nightmares

i wish i could just close my eyes, open them, and it's times to get up. but noooo i have to have dreams all the time disturbing my sleep. and i have to have dreams because i have an overactive mind, therefore having continuous dysphoria due to my lack of a good night. i know, i know, dreams are nice when they're whimsical and jovial, but i'd rather not have them at all if it meant sleeping well... for once. because as of late, i don't even have fanciful dreams, i have friggin nightmares. man i wish i could just knock out completely. yes eight hours of no thinking, no dreaming, no visions... just black out. sounds good.

dreams... don't loves it.

Forgetting Sarah Marshall

this movie is HILARIOUS!
Mila Kunis... loves it

Paris, Je T'aime

I know i'm a bit late on watching this. i've had it for quite sometime now and have been meaning to watch it, but was never in the mood or just never got around to it. but i've finally watched it. and i think it's absolutely beautiful. there was a preciseness to it that is absolutely... amiable, imaginary, lovely, enchanting. C'est tres bien!

Love it

"I Quit" refrained

Unfortunately i broke my diet and i ate a brownie. Those brownies are just sooooo darn tempting. oh well. i think it was well worth it. that brownie was filled with lots of yummy!

I Quit

Just lettin y'all know that i've quit "eating brownies" ;)
And when i say i quit i really mean i've quit for a bit. It is to be continued in later. Don't wanna be "fat" all the time. Especially now.

yes i did see her

i was sitting w/ a couple of my friends from school. we were in front of mrs. winchel's grocery store and i saw Meg Ryan in a black track suit w/ shades. i wish i would have said hi :\