Departure

Is it just me or are there too many deaths lately? I always say if it's more than one, it's a lot. That goes for everything, not just death. But, yeah, it seems as though death has been following or lingering around me. I keep thinking there's all these little signs, but I don't know what to take into consideration or just disregard. But I think these deaths mean something, the sadness that follows them also means something...

There's Something to be Said...

There's something to be said about those who lack compassion. I mean, what do you do when the world around you feels everything, but compassion? I've always tried to look at the brighter things in life, but what happens when you run of bright things to see? I guess it hurts that much more when you've spent your life trying really hard to be compassionate and empathetic. It was always harder for me to be truly apathetic. And now it seems as though that is what's happening. I've come to a point where I have to be lethargic towards everything. However, I don't want to be. Don't get me wrong. I'm not here in search of pity, but rather... benevolence, grace, sympathy, kindness, all the things that make you believe we're still human beings. Because there is something to be said about those who lack compassion, they are merely a person of stoicism and indifference. So does that make them a person at all? I think not. Just to be clear, I know that I'm being rather vague about whom I'm talking about, but it's no one in particular. It's a myriad of wrong doers that are dwelling this earth and are tainting it with nightmares. Really, really unnecessary nightmares. So I guess my point is, the world is already hard enough, so why not try being a little compassionate every now and then?

3 Day's of Trial

I can't speak fully right now of what has been going on with me, but I do want to say a few things. These last three days has really made me think about how much one decision can effect so much. How many lives it can effect. How lives can be destroyed, or even how stressful it can be to wait in suspense as you life is crumbling around you. I know this may sound dramatic, but this has been the last three days... i'll continue when i can...